I've been wayyy to much complaining,

Lesson #1 : I should be grateful(very) on everything that The Almighty have set through my life. Family, friends, mates all of them, that's the biggest gift I've received.

Lesson #2 : The ups and downs. I've walking through all the pain , all the gain. And know what I thankful Allah for? The strength after the thunderstorm. I've been stronger form time to time. Family conflicts, unstable condition, mental breakdown, damn back stabbed, negative energy, mulut longkang, academic punch, critical financial status, and worst love life. I am normal 20 years old teenager and I'm facing 20 years old problems. Alhamdulillah Allah masih sayangkan saya, He gave me the bright silver lining in after a very dark cloud.

Lesson #3 : Expectation versus Reality. Since I am 12, I never put high expectation on whatever I'm doing. Commitment is my terror. I am very scared to expect things to turn out beautifully even I really hope it to be. Exemplary A : I never put target to my result since UPSR, PMR, SPM and now the CGPA. I enjoyed the surprises and I thank Allah for never let me drifted by self-failures.

Lesson #4 : After all the stabs I've received from anonymous till the closest. I find it hard to put my trust to anyone now. Automatically, I'll build an invisible thick wall to whoever tried to attach me with the name of friendship. I got only a few bestfriends and eventually, there always a dirty little secrets I keep it to myself, still. Blame life, it taught me to watch my back and keep the words.

Lesson #5 : Brings out the best in me to my loved ones. In this context, the blood line. I carry the burden of being eldest wherever I go. In my studies, in my behaviour, and trough my acts (normally). But sometimes I've caught myself slipping slowly when I'm pacing the ones who attached the fragile heart. You know who you are.

Whatever it is. Whatever had happened, is happening and will be happen. I will standing still, pacing my life from day to day, enjoying every moments and blissful life given from The Almighty knowing that I have the objection of life and I am proud to pronounce that I can count on myself from now on.