To leave and left

 To whom it may concern,

First and foremost I want to apologize all my wrong doings towards you this past two years of us, knowing each others. I'm truly sorry for my foul words, bad habit and especially the over-burst tears. I know, I admit that I've been rude sometimes to you. Mean, heartless, cold, and the list goes on and on and on. Deep inside, I never want to hurt you with that silly mistakes. Not even once I did that on purpose.

I know, sorry alone will be never enough. I appreciate the gift(s) , the thoughts, the songs we've been sharing all these days. I thank you for all the great and shitty days we've been through. All the credit spent, all the night talks, the dream wishes, the fairy tales. It will be seamed beautifully deep in my heart.

You've taught me from the part I never thought of being taught. The harsh part. I cried during the learning, again, I'm sorry. I know my bull-head wouldn't accept your stern voice and principles. Truly sorry for being myself. I guess you can't cope with that.

I don't know if you will or will not reading this. But I hope you will. Cause this is straight from my heart. Pardon my silly grammar and vocabulary. I'm not a pro-writer.

I have to end this. Not because of anyone but myself. I'm tired of your always-right-gen. I'm tired of fighting. I guess I need someone who can confront me, not fight me. I'm losing faith with your principles, I guess I'm out of your league. Just remember this basic, one thing. I'm not saint, nor an angel. I do mistakes and so do you. Why keep on pointing others mistakes but not yours? Remember our nearly fight issues? On whom to be blamed not what is the problem?? I nearly cry as standing for my point. You made me react like my old times. Aggressive, emotional debater.

Why you keep on saying that my eyes were blind? Am I that blind to you??
How could you say that to a girl? Actually, I'm pretty much surprised with myself. I can stand those harshness for a very long period. I guess my patience is growing fond. *cheers*
Why I looked blind to you? Because I just see him and not you? Because it always being him and anyone else and not you? With that reasons I become blind to your view?
Cut that please.

I am a grown-up. I know how to handle things. Maybe I am a little childish, or babyish to brag all this and that. Sulking, pouting, crying, you named it. I have made my decision so stop creating that so-called drama. I'm extremely tired.

With that, I officially end this.

Yours truly,